Do you see me as me?
Am I a child to your eyes? What about your heart?
Your friends think its cute, you laugh and agree.
Can you not see me? Am I not right in front of you?
You\'ve got me all confused, you say you are joking but your eyes disagree.
Your eyes glimmer as the eclipse takes the moon.
A bum walks bye, but you don\'t see him. What do you see?
You blush, but what for?
Have I raised your affinity for me?
Tell me, and tell me quickly.
let\'s just pretend, pretend the world agrees. Pretend the world wants us to be.
So light your cancer stick and suck in the smoke.
Just lean against the pole, look at the ocean below.
Look u
Let\'s take a ride together,
We\'ll see where we go.
We\'ll talk about everything,
Your parties, your friends, and everything.
We\'ll talk about my school, we\'ll talk about my guys, and everything there is.
We\'ll go to Skyline, we\'ll watch the city lights.
We\'ll watch the world below us and wonder where we are.
I\'ll wish upon a shooting,
I\'ll sing our favorite song and dance in your arms.
We\'ll stay there until midnight,
We\'ll pretend we don\'t feel the same,
We\'ll pretend we are fine.
We\'ll twirl around until we fall.
You\'ll wish upon a star,
You\'ll sing your favorite song.
You\'ll smoke your favorite cigarettes ad
Ill Keep it to myself by body-language, literature
Literature
Ill Keep it to myself
It was summer the day you came,
I remember your smile and it wasn\'t lame.
I wish I could tell you,
I wish you could know.
I\'ll let myself hide,
and I\'ll let myself cry.
I\'ll keep it to myself,
I\'ll let it sink into my soul.
I\'ll be trapped, as long as you don\'t know.
I\'ll keep it to myself,
And I won\'t tell a soul.
Even though you are gone,
You may never return.
Maybe I\'ll see you, maybe you\'ll come.
What will I say? What will I do?
I\'ll play along,
I\'ll pretend it wasn\'t even there.
The car has started,
The music is playing.
We\'re on our way to see you.
Do you want us to come?
i feel like I am here for all the wrong reasons,
I want to see you,
I want to hear your voice,
But we are here for a stronger purpose.
When I get there, I\'ll pretend I\'m not with you.
When will we get there? IS it soon?
My stomach is turning,
My hands are shaking,
My face is turning pale.
I\'m in the crowd now,
Where are you?
I\'ll watch everyone else.
I\'m shaking even more.
I see you now,
You look the same to me.
I\'ll give you a hug,
Just a hug will relieve me.
My stomach is turning,
My hands are shaking,
My face is tur
My heart is aching,
My soul is weak with every waking day.
The loneliness seems never ending, loneliness from not only love, but life itself.
Look in the mirror,
Do you see the cracked lips?
Do you see the worn out eyes?
DO you see the pain in my face?
You sit outsidem
smoke your cigarette and drink your coffee.
The rain falls around your body.
How can I not take the truth?
Your different, your not perfect, your not the same as everyone else, And your\'e my favorite.
I look in the mirror,
do you see the cracked lips?
Do you see the once beautiful eyes?
Do you see the pale face?
I\'ll drench this face with water, will it wash o
I\'m so sick of being used,
So sick of feeling pain,
ANd of feeling hate for you.
Just one more.
Just one thought,
Just one boy, How can I make it better?
How does it make me go insane?
I just hope you don\'t mind,
I\'m putting everything on this page.
There\'s no one to pour my heart to,
So, I write this just for you.
I\'m beginning to breath again...
Maybe this will tell you the truth,
If you can read between the lines.
Maybe I will send you this,
Maybe you will know.
I\'ll send my pack of papers,
I\'ll send you everything.
I just want to thank you for the summer you spent with me.
I cry out to you,
but you can\'t hear me.
You were the only one who knew me, the only one who understood me.
I wish I could tell you everything but you are gone.
your school has taken you,
You no longer see me as me.
Remember our summer?
Remember the boys that we loved?
You seem so different,
You seem so fake to me
Remember our laughing moments?
Remember Ian and me?
Don\'t seperate from us,
I know what you are going through.
I\'m counting down the days,
10, just 10 days until I see you.
If you loosen up to me,
I\'ll promise a perfect summer.
i won\'t make them take you back,
Will you stay with me forever?
Will we ever be
The music floods my ears,
You smell like smoke to me,
Am i another joke to you?
Do you like to laugh at this?
I don\'t feel that way with you,
This is all just one big game to you,
I want to be your friend,
Because it\'s more than just a game.
You think I like you,
You think I want you,
But you don\'t know my secret.
I wish I could tell you,
But you won\'t loosen up.
Let me get close to you,
You\'ve known me all your life.
Maybe if I was olderm
You wouldn\'t hold back like you do.
let\'s just keep it like it is,
forget I even mentioned it.
Current Residence: CA Favourite genre of music: a lot? Favourite photographer: L. Ron Hubbard Personal Quote: he was unwittingly witty when attempting to change the world......whoever knew?
Favourite Visual Artist
people are always different in some way or another so how am i too choose?
Favourite Movies
Moulagn Rouge, Amelie CQ Garden State
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
the Wunder years, kaito, The Sounds....my brother singing in the shower....
Favourite Writers
kiel!@
Favourite Games
HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRETS! ON PC way cool
Other Interests
music, writing, photography, drawing...thats my life
ok so im back. its been a real long time since ive been on deviant art. but i am back and in the midst of loading a bunch of photos...haha yesss!
yeah so even though my last journal entry was supperlly awesomely awesome...i decided to put something else in...hmmm...
i just read all of TIMTHE LOSER's journals! haha tim!!! you freeak! if i didnt know you i would think you were totally obsessed! haha.....heh heh!
haha well umm today was nice and horrible at the same time...i was only at school for like ...what 30minutes? and i got away with it! noice!!!! but i also got my fucking braces tightend which is way horribly not okay! but they will be off in about 3 months! woot ! woot! annnddddd i got coffee at the same place I get coffee every day and the guy there is way nice and cut